Emotional Roller Coaster

I’ve been putting off writing an update for a bit because it has been an emotional couple of weeks. Luke has been fighting this battle so hard, but it definitely hasn’t been easy.

Luke’s blood counts were slowly starting to recover and his mucositis is infinitely better. Despite this Luke felt so crummy last week. He was barely been able to eat, was nauseous, and so exhausted. It just felt like this huge weight was on him.

Saturday his counts shot up! They are just about normal now which means his recovery is going well. This has really helped to lift us up so we can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Stem cell transplants are one long dark tunnel.

I have been doing my best to keep his spirits up through all of the hard days. It’s not always easy. These last few weeks have been some of the hardest of my life. Every day is an emotional roller coaster.

I do my best to stay strong and positive for Luke. It gets hard to keep it all together some days though. I am so happy that I get to spend every day with Luke, but I feel so helpless. It is incredibly hard to watch the person you love most in the world go through something so horrible. I would do anything to make him happy and healthy again. Luke is my world.

On a happy note, since Luke’s counts are so good the doctors let me take Luke home tonight as a trial run to see how he does at home! He is so happy to be out of the hospital and in the comfort of his own home.

I am ecstatic to have him sleep beside me tonight. Nothing makes me happier than being with my Lukey.

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