I’m not going to lie, I have a little bit of PTSD from having been in a long distance relationship for so long. When I flew home for a week in December I started to tear up in the airport because I already missed Luke so much. Not just in the normal sense of missing another person, but I had this empty pit in my stomach that made me feel ill and like I was breaking into a million pieces. The only thing that would make me feel better and whole was being in Luke’s arms.
Every now and then I get this feeling on a normal day when we are apart. It happened today. I had to leave the house in the morning to head to work. My commute is long as I have to take the bus. What is normally a 15 minute drive takes over and hour by bus. While on that bus trip I had the overwhelming feeling of missing Luke. Now as I sit here at home with Penny on my chest and Luke on his way home from work, I finally am starting to feel okay again.
I can’t wait to be hugged so soon!