I Don’t Know Where to Start

I’ve been putting off writing this blog post for a couple weeks now. My heart and my head feel like they are drowning.

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CNS Phase complete!

I haven’t updated a whole bunch on my blog lately because the CNS phase of treatment was definitely rougher on me than I anticipated.

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2 years of Marriage

Yesterday was Luke and my two year wedding anniversary. It was not at all how I imagined spending our day together, but I think it was truly a representation of our relationship and love for each other.

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What’s Next?

I have been home for almost a week now and it has been so nice! It’s amazing the difference a good night sleep in your own bed can do.

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Home is Where my Heart is

I’m HOME! I’m home I’m home I’m home!

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An Unexpected Day

Today did not go quite as planned. Doesn’t mean it was all bad though.

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Fatigue

I haven’t written a new blog post lately because it’s been a rough week. I’ve been so worn out and I didn’t even know it was possible to feel this kind of fatigue.

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It’s been a long couple days

As the title suggests the last few days have felt quite long and I have not had the mental stamina to keep up with sharing with all of you.

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Little Victories!

This morning started off just as crummy as the last two. Still had issues with with my blood pressure being too low but this evening that all seems a world away this evening.

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Downward Trend Begins

Sorry for my silence the last day or so. The lows are finally starting to hit and I’ve had a rough day. Some of my meds can make you have to go while others make it harder to go to the restroom. They try to manage with laxatives but it is a balancing act.

This morning the I was finally able to go but not without a lot of pain (I apologize for the TMI but there’s no better way to explain what’s going on) losing all the fluid has messed with my body. They have been giving me fluids all day long to try and get my blood pressure back up but I can’t really stand more than a minute without feeling faint.

So today begins some of the downward trend of good days as my body gets hit by the chemo. I’ve basically been resting in bed all day. It took a while but I was finally able to eat a little toast and Jam and feel more comfortable in bed. The only way to describe it is 100% pure exhaustion. I can barely keep my eyes open even while typing this.

Please bare with me as I navigate these more difficult days. They say that this next week will be one of the harder ones as my counts continue to drop.

Well that’s all for now as typing isn’t the easiest when you keep falling asleep. It’s even hard to stay awake for Kevin Bacon in footloose! One of the greatest movies ever.