It’s the last month of 2020. It’s hard to believe that this year is almost over. It has felt like the longest year of my life and yet it has flown by. So much has happened I can’t even begin to muddle through it all.Continue reading “December 1st”
It has been a while since I have written a blog post. To be honest, I’m not even sure if I’ll finish this one. I’ve had writers block these last two months and with my parents and Luke’s family here I really just wanted to be present while I had them around.Continue reading “There Are No Words”
I honestly don’t know how to start this blog post. There are no words that can describe the loss of Luke and the emptiness I feel without him.Continue reading “The Hardest Two Weeks of my Life”
Yesterday was Luke and my two year wedding anniversary. It was not at all how I imagined spending our day together, but I think it was truly a representation of our relationship and love for each other.Continue reading “2 years of Marriage”
I have been home for almost a week now and it has been so nice! It’s amazing the difference a good night sleep in your own bed can do.Continue reading “What’s Next?”
I’m HOME! I’m home I’m home I’m home!Continue reading “Home is Where my Heart is”
Today did not go quite as planned. Doesn’t mean it was all bad though.Continue reading “An Unexpected Day”
I haven’t written a new blog post lately because it’s been a rough week. I’ve been so worn out and I didn’t even know it was possible to feel this kind of fatigue.Continue reading “Fatigue”
As the title suggests the last few days have felt quite long and I have not had the mental stamina to keep up with sharing with all of you.Continue reading “It’s been a long couple days”
Sorry for my silence the last day or so. The lows are finally starting to hit and I’ve had a rough day. Some of my meds can make you have to go while others make it harder to go to the restroom. They try to manage with laxatives but it is a balancing act.
This morning the I was finally able to go but not without a lot of pain (I apologize for the TMI but there’s no better way to explain what’s going on) losing all the fluid has messed with my body. They have been giving me fluids all day long to try and get my blood pressure back up but I can’t really stand more than a minute without feeling faint.
So today begins some of the downward trend of good days as my body gets hit by the chemo. I’ve basically been resting in bed all day. It took a while but I was finally able to eat a little toast and Jam and feel more comfortable in bed. The only way to describe it is 100% pure exhaustion. I can barely keep my eyes open even while typing this.
Please bare with me as I navigate these more difficult days. They say that this next week will be one of the harder ones as my counts continue to drop.
Well that’s all for now as typing isn’t the easiest when you keep falling asleep. It’s even hard to stay awake for Kevin Bacon in footloose! One of the greatest movies ever.