Fear of Recurrence

One of the most common things that cancer patients deal with is the fear of their cancer coming back or spreading. This fear of recurrence causes a lot of anxiety in the cancer community, especially when it comes time for scans, biopsies, and follow up appointments.

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Three Year Anniversary

My heart is heavy. Today would have been our third wedding anniversary. Being Luke’s wife was one of my biggest accomplishments in life. I will forever cherish all of the memories we made together.

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Memory Quilts

One of the things you have to do once you become a widow is to start the process of going through everything that was left behind. Up front are the logistical things such as bank accounts, bills, loans, arrangements, etc. Later it becomes about the physical things. Clothing, shoes, electronics/ gadgets, sentimental gifts, and so many little things you wouldn’t think of.

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Put One Foot in Front of the Other

This last week has been a busy blur. At least busy for covid standards. I started round 8 of treatment and this began the start of my new chemotherapy.

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There Are No Words

It has been a while since I have written a blog post. To be honest, I’m not even sure if I’ll finish this one. I’ve had writers block these last two months and with my parents and Luke’s family here I really just wanted to be present while I had them around.

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The Hardest Two Weeks of my Life

I honestly don’t know how to start this blog post. There are no words that can describe the loss of Luke and the emptiness I feel without him.

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2 years of Marriage

Yesterday was Luke and my two year wedding anniversary. It was not at all how I imagined spending our day together, but I think it was truly a representation of our relationship and love for each other.

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Home is Where my Heart is

I’m HOME! I’m home I’m home I’m home!

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An Unexpected Day

Today did not go quite as planned. Doesn’t mean it was all bad though.

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Here We Go Again

It feels like only a day has passed since Luke was first diagnosed and yet it also feels like it was a million years ago. We have been fighting this battle for so long and it feels neverending.

Well, here we go again.

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