Buckle Up – It’s Valentine’s Day

Okay folks I have some news so buckle up. It’s good news don’t worry, but I’m nervous about sharing it with all of you and what you might say. Well, here goes nothing…

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Things are Looking Up

It feels odd to say that, but truly it has been a pretty positive couple of weeks for me.

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Long Overdue Update

It has been a while since I did a post on how I am doing or updated y’all on my life these last several months. I have been so busy with work and life that I often forget that I started this blog not only as a way to express myself but also as a way to keep friends, family, and those who have been following my life these past four years updated.

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Grief is Ongoing – One Year Later

One Year. That’s how long it has been since I last saw the love of my life. One year since I last looked in his eyes and felt whole and complete. One year since I last held Luke’s hand and kissed his warm skin. One year has passed since I saw him take his last breaths and felt a piece of myself go with him.

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Three Year Anniversary

My heart is heavy. Today would have been our third wedding anniversary. Being Luke’s wife was one of my biggest accomplishments in life. I will forever cherish all of the memories we made together.

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Rantings and Ramblings

I haven’t written a post in a while. After the LLS fundraising competition I truly needed a break from writing and putting myself out there. While it was so rewarding to do something so good, it was definitely tiring (I still haven’t had a chance to send thank you’s to all the wonderful people who donated). Now that it has been a couple of weeks I have had time to rest, recharge, and focus on myself a little more.

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One Year Cancer-versary

One year ago today I received my diagnosis that I had B-cell Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. One year ago my world completely changed and turned upside down. One year ago I went from a caregiver to a patient.

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Memory Quilts

One of the things you have to do once you become a widow is to start the process of going through everything that was left behind. Up front are the logistical things such as bank accounts, bills, loans, arrangements, etc. Later it becomes about the physical things. Clothing, shoes, electronics/ gadgets, sentimental gifts, and so many little things you wouldn’t think of.

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Be Mine

I’m struggling with today more than I expected to. Throughout our whole relationship, Luke and I were very anti-Valentine’s Day. We saw the holiday as a day for companies to make money and instead we spent every day telling each other how much we loved each other and never needed just one day to spoil or surprise one another. That being said, when we finally closed the distance it was so nice to be able to do normal couple things such as celebrate Valentine’s Day in our own way (including discount candy day they day after).

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The Hardest Two Weeks of my Life

I honestly don’t know how to start this blog post. There are no words that can describe the loss of Luke and the emptiness I feel without him.

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