Survivor’s Guilt

As I am rounding the corner and coming up on the end of my treatment, it seems like a fitting time for my next topic from my blog post bracket: Survivor’s Guilt. I have seen this topic mentioned by so many of the young adult cancer population who have lost friends to the very same cancers they themselves are surviving.

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Things are Looking Up

It feels odd to say that, but truly it has been a pretty positive couple of weeks for me.

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Long Overdue Update

It has been a while since I did a post on how I am doing or updated y’all on my life these last several months. I have been so busy with work and life that I often forget that I started this blog not only as a way to express myself but also as a way to keep friends, family, and those who have been following my life these past four years updated.

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Grief is Ongoing – One Year Later

One Year. That’s how long it has been since I last saw the love of my life. One year since I last looked in his eyes and felt whole and complete. One year since I last held Luke’s hand and kissed his warm skin. One year has passed since I saw him take his last breaths and felt a piece of myself go with him.

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Fear of Recurrence

One of the most common things that cancer patients deal with is the fear of their cancer coming back or spreading. This fear of recurrence causes a lot of anxiety in the cancer community, especially when it comes time for scans, biopsies, and follow up appointments.

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Three Year Anniversary

My heart is heavy. Today would have been our third wedding anniversary. Being Luke’s wife was one of my biggest accomplishments in life. I will forever cherish all of the memories we made together.

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One Year in Remission

As of June 18th I have officially been in remission from my leukemia for a full year! I had this in my calendar yesterday, but I still forgot until later in the evening.

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Rantings and Ramblings

I haven’t written a post in a while. After the LLS fundraising competition I truly needed a break from writing and putting myself out there. While it was so rewarding to do something so good, it was definitely tiring (I still haven’t had a chance to send thank you’s to all the wonderful people who donated). Now that it has been a couple of weeks I have had time to rest, recharge, and focus on myself a little more.

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One Year Cancer-versary

One year ago today I received my diagnosis that I had B-cell Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. One year ago my world completely changed and turned upside down. One year ago I went from a caregiver to a patient.

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Memory Quilts

One of the things you have to do once you become a widow is to start the process of going through everything that was left behind. Up front are the logistical things such as bank accounts, bills, loans, arrangements, etc. Later it becomes about the physical things. Clothing, shoes, electronics/ gadgets, sentimental gifts, and so many little things you wouldn’t think of.

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