Since losing Luke I feel as if I have been bombarded by two kinds of sympathy. The first are those who reach out to say how sorry they are for my loss and how they can’t imagine what I must be going through. These are the people who typically offer vague help and then disappear as time goes on. Grief tourists.
The second kind of the person offers sympathy by checking in on you without pressure, offers helpful advice, talks about everyday life and doesn’t give you pity looks when you bring up your late husband. They share their memories and give love and laughter to an otherwise dark time.
Continue reading “The Big W”
It’s the last month of 2020. It’s hard to believe that this year is almost over. It has felt like the longest year of my life and yet it has flown by. So much has happened I can’t even begin to muddle through it all.
Continue reading “December 1st”
It has been a while since I have written a blog post. To be honest, I’m not even sure if I’ll finish this one. I’ve had writers block these last two months and with my parents and Luke’s family here I really just wanted to be present while I had them around.
Continue reading “There Are No Words”
I honestly don’t know how to start this blog post. There are no words that can describe the loss of Luke and the emptiness I feel without him.
Continue reading “The Hardest Two Weeks of my Life”
I’ve been putting off writing this blog post for a couple weeks now. My heart and my head feel like they are drowning.
Continue reading “I Don’t Know Where to Start”
I’ve had quite a lot of writers block this past week as I started my first round of intensification treatment. I like using my blog to keep everyone updated, but it is also a good therapeutic outlet for me. Writing allows me to get my thoughts and feelings out of my head and sharing them usually helps to ease some of my anxiety.
Continue reading “Vulnerable”
I haven’t updated a whole bunch on my blog lately because the CNS phase of treatment was definitely rougher on me than I anticipated.
Continue reading “CNS Phase complete!”
Yesterday was Luke and my two year wedding anniversary. It was not at all how I imagined spending our day together, but I think it was truly a representation of our relationship and love for each other.
Continue reading “2 years of Marriage”
I have been home for almost a week now and it has been so nice! It’s amazing the difference a good night sleep in your own bed can do.
Continue reading “What’s Next?”